so I am pretty happy with this. .6 down works well for me....especially because I had an extra bread stick last night. :) Today I decided to have eggs and spinach for lunch. It says you can if you have an aversion to meet. So today I had an aversion. I needed something different. YUMMY. it was like a treat.
So my hard thing today was when I went grocery shopping. I bought my family fresh warm french bread to go with their dinner. It was so fresh the window in the bag was steamed up. It took all I had not to eat the entire thing while walking around the store. But I didn't.. Just drank my tea and chewed my ice. Making dinner for my family is getting easier. I have figured out a trick. If I make venison it makes me gag and I don't want to touch it with a ten foot pole. So my family will be eating a lot of our meat stock from the freezer. YUMMY
on a more serious note. I have been thinking a lot about my eating habits. When I was younger I was diagnosed with an eating disorder that I battled until I was about 21. I am very good about playing games with my mind when it comes to food. Tonight I was making my husbands breakfast burritos and I thought "hm a bite looks good." and the thought right after that was "food is bad it will make you gain weight." I had this visual of the scale sliding up 2 ounces and it made me cringe. So it took me back to a day when I would weigh myself after everything I ate and worked out 3 or 4 times a day just to get the gratification of the numbers on the scale going down. So now I sit here an wonder where am I when it comes to food? do food and I have a relationship? is it an abusive one? is this going to make it worse? am I going to slip off that slippery slope? I don't think so. What I desire is a good relationship with food. to not be consumed with it one way or the other. To know what I am putting in my body and why. I am going to use this as a "reset button" for me and food.
sorry for getting serious on you
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You are so funny! This diet makes me reflect on my relationship with food too. It really changes your mindset. How did you get over your eating disorder?
ReplyDeleteI got pregnant and my focus became on eating just like te book said. I hd done a few treatments but they didn't really work for me. I never really bought into the "my life sucked so I don't eat thing." When I got pregnant I was not the number one thing in my life. But I tend to be all or nothing. eat nothing or eat a big mac
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